Hello Everyone

OK, this is the first post in which I have no basis on what I want to write. Usually I'm always ready to write a typical story, post a picture of artwork I did, Songs, Poems, etc, but today I genuinely do not have anything in particular to write about.
So I'm just going to wing it today, I guess i should talk about several things that have been probing my mind for the longest and I need to get them out.

To start off with what's on my mind I guess I'll begin with what people know first.

1) The reason I'm quitting Flamex - Most people have probably been curious as to the reason for my sudden withdrawal from the flock and here is the reason. About a week and several days ago, there was an incident that happened on the chat site. It started off with several individuals on the chat including Dark, Nitru, Minx, Dark-Wolf ( I believe ) and Girl. I came on as Cain Cosmos and asked them to accompany me on a journey to save Alter because I noticed that the chat was getting pretty "soap - opera like" and I aimed to try and change the simple dialogue with action. So we went to "Hell" and that's how the mission began, keep in mind that Dark is sometimes very oblivious to the fact that there are others ideas that do not naturally coincide with his own ideas. Sometimes Dark fails to see that he has tried to take over control of something that one man started. This is what happened in this case, Dark seemed to be oblivious to the fact that I wanted the RPG to break away from the seals of immortality and invulnerability. But Dark seemed to ignore that fact and seemingly took over control by saying that he wasn't scared and ultimately slowing down the RPG speed that was in-visioned at the beginning of the RPG. So this led up to the point in which I got tired of his constant "Immortality and Bravado" that I launched a miniscule attack on him, in which he got angry and said this is childish. Now what made me angry was the fact that he wouldn't be subdued, his ignorance to the fact that using immortality and invulnerability turns a normally exciting RPG into a boring and lax game.

2) Well my girlfriend broke up with me, this is not really as much as a big deal as I thought it would be at first. The important thing is that even though she did break up with me, she remains a close friend to me. Which is more than I can say for any previous girlfriend I've had, who've dumped me for other guys and then come back when they realize that physical attributes are not as important as mental ones. My ex-girlfriend still remains very close and still helps me with a lot of my problems that I face when it comes to girl trouble. As most people can realize, I'm very bad with girls, I tend to freeze up and find myself unable to communicate how I feel through words. It's a mental block I assume I've set up for myself to prevent a disappointing feeling if the situation turns out in the negative. Meaning the girl rejects me, which has happened on numerous occasions if you haven't noticed. But still my ex-girlfriend is very helpful in these situations because she knows how I think, I have a very different way of looking at girls. Meaning I do not just look at physical attributes, which I do tend to do, but i also look at other attributes as well. These include funniness, personality, smarts, philosophical and physiological attributes. If anyone could help me with figuring out how to destabilize this mental block that has been set up in my mind, it would be greatly appreciated. Preferably answers from girls please. Guys can answer, but I'd much rather prefer someone of the female origin giving me advice.

3) OK, this is the last venting section of my blog and I would assume that most people have been in a situation like this................( have to go to work)

~Alter Cosmos~
-Time is running thin, but with the force of Hope strengthening the flock. There is nothing that cannot be defeated.-